Got my MRI today. Now, I haven't had my followup appointment with the Ortho Dr yet, so it may not be as bad as it sounds, but it sounds pretty bad.
MRI Knee Lt WO Contrast
There is a bone bruise and minimal trabecular fracture involving the posterior lateral tibial plateau.
Torn ACL. Associated bone bruises in the tibial plateau and femoral condyles with a focal defect in the articular cartilage over the weightbearing portion of the medial femoral condyle.
Basically, the big tendon that attaches the lower leg to thigh, part of the cushion between and the bony areas above and below my knee cap are damaged. Until the Ortho Dr can look at the images himself it is too early to tell if I just need rehab or if surgery is in my near future.
But I'm looking at 3 months or more off the mats.
My BJJ Journey
Monday, April 10, 2017
Thursday, April 6, 2017
Knee Pain
As I get older I notice more and more pops and grinds in my
joints. That is perfectly normal. Last week my left knee made a terrible noise that still makes me cringe
just thinking about it. As I was attempting to distance myself from my partner
he grabbed my leg causing me to lose my balance and suddenly my knee popped
like an over inflated party balloon and there was a screaming pain. I was pretty
much done rolling for the night. Two days later, I was back on the mat, there
was still some pain, but it was manageable. Several rolls into the night I was
getting to my feet up after a particularly viscous partner and my knee
basically told me to piss off. It simply gave out with a blinding pain - I
might have used some colourful, explicit metaphors, I honestly do not recall. I
knew at this point I may be in trouble. Fortunately this is my left knee and I
didn’t need it to drive home. The next few days the pain was much worse, now it
popped, grinded and threatened to give out regularly. I rested over the weekend
and even used a cane to get around at work for a few days. I made an
appointment to see an Ortho Dr, which brings us to today. Roughly 10 days from
the date of the original injury and 8 days from the exacerbating injury he
poked, twisted and basically made me hurt in ways that I did not appreciate. The
XRays came back normal and now I am scheduled for an MRI to rule out a torn
meniscus. Bottom line, I’m off the mats until it is cleared up.
Tuesday, March 28, 2017
Sprint vs Marathon
When I was 16 I could out pace Usain Bolt at the 200 meter sprint. It was 1990 and Usain "Lightning" Bolt was 5 at the time, but I think it still counts.
While Usain in widely known as the fastest man on the planet he is no Dean Karnazes. At the age of 42 Dean ran 50 marathons in 50 states in 50 consecutive days. He completed the NYC Marathon on the last day with a time of 3 hours and 30 seconds. I have no doubt that Usain can best Dean in the 200 meter, but Dean would beat Usain at the 560 kilometer (which he completed in 2005 in 80 hours and 44 minutes with no sleep).
The point is that there are different modes in running, the sprint and the marathon. BJJ is no different. Last night I had the opportunity to roll with both extremes. First was BlueBelt (bb), bb was a sprinter. Before I had even began to think about how I was going to defend, bb was already all over me tugging at my extremities and trying to manhandle me into where he wanted me to be. I did the best I could to protect myself but I was quickly sub'd (submitted) several times. His attacks were quick and brutal. As soon as bb felt that one line of attack wasn't working for him he would either try to muscle it through or move to another line just as quickly. It was a sprint that I had no chance of winning.
Later I rolled with BrownBelt (BB). BB was patient, at no point did it seem like BB ever really exerted himself. Every movement was precise and only exactly what was needed to do the intended job. BB allowed me to explore attack options but never let me close the deal. I never felt like there was a time that he was not in control, when I passed his guard and took side control it was because he let me, he resisted, but not so much that I wouldn't be able to progress. This was a marathon that I still had no chance of winning, but I didn't feel my efforts were wasted.
Now I am not suggesting that a sprinter is not as good as marathoner or even the other way around. Let's face it when I say Usain Bolt, you know whom I am talking about, when I say Dean Karnazes I get blank stares. Sprinting is flashy and exciting to watch. I see very proficient BJJ practitioners that are sprinters. What I don't see is very many older BJJ practitioners that are sprinters.
Sprinting is a young person's game, and marathons are the long game.
I want to play the long game.
Tuesday, March 21, 2017
I'm pretty sure it's not broken, but that isn't the proper colour.
Session 5 of my BJJ Journey.
This week was a bit tougher and
easier at the same time. I'm in a fair amount of pain. Mostly because I'm out
of shape but also because I seem to be losing chunks of skin from mat burn,
joints are being stressed, muscles are being used in ways they don't care for
and my fingers are stiff from desperately holding on to my partner’s gi. That
all sounds bad when I list it out like that, but I am honestly feeling better
about this experience.
Last night was first time my
Budoshin training came into play. Two of my partners repeated got to their feet
while rolling. One of them obviously had never rolled with someone who had judo
training and was quickly dispatched several times. The great advantage of many judo
throws is that one almost always is in a dominant position at the completion of
the throw. My second partner clearly has played this game before but between the
two of us we negated each other’s attempts to take the other down and we spent
the entire round deadlocked with neither of us having a great advantage.
I felt pretty good about my
performance until I rolled with one of the black belts who showed me why he was
a black belt and I was a white belt. Every move I made was not only countered,
but exploited and put me in a more compromising position. The entire time I
rolled with him I felt like I was being controlled. A few minutes into the
round he began to guide me and coach me through some techniques, but all the
things he walked me through, while effective, were not things that I would have
thought to do on my own. It was much more than post out with your hand here or
tighten your knees there. It was, “now (blindly) roll into the choke here”, “now
flip your body this direction”, again, effective for that scenario, but not
something I would have likely figured out on my own. Later I realized that
because I didn’t fully understand what was happening to me, I could not
properly counter it.
Daniel’s chess analogy comes back to
me. In chess tactics unless one is able to recognize that the opponent is
setting up the Boden’s Mate, they are in no position to properly defend
themselves against it. Without a comprehensive knowledge of what techniques or
theories were being used against me, I would be at a significant disadvantage to
defend against them. Like my first opponent that did not have a background
against someone with judo training was unable to properly defend against
throws, my second opponent understood the theory and was able to prevent me
from exploiting a weakness.
The moral of the story: This is a
journey unlike my pervious training. The goal is not for me to grasp a specific
technique or throw but to understand how my partner’s movements and body
positions effect my ability to execute a movement. It does me no good to be
able to perfectly execute a scissor sweep, if I can’t get myself AND my partner
into position. My partner is unlikely to set himself up to the ideal position
for me to perform a compromising move on him. I need to understand how to get
myself and my partner into the right position, but also be able to modify my
plan on the fly if another opportunity or road block presents itself.
Thursday, March 16, 2017
BJJ didn’t make me feel old until last night; actually this morning.
Session 4: My Journey into BJJ
The Pan Jiu Jitsu IBJJF Championship is this week. I will NOT
be participating this year. Many in my gym will be, all of them, as far as I can
tell, are significantly younger than me. That in it of itself didn’t necessarily
make me feel old. Researching the IBJJF tournament rules, seeing age based
tiers for adults and my level of soreness from last night’s session did make me
feel old.
As I looked at the IBJJF Belt and age divisions I noticed
that the adult bracket was broken down into 30 individual groups, 6 of the categories
are based on age. That doesn’t even include weight sub categories. I didn’t
really understand why though. Was it because a 45 year old in the Masters 4
group has so much more experience than a 25 year old in the plain vanilla Adult
category it wouldn’t be fair? So I looked around some blog sites to seek some
insight to if there was a benefit to an older guy, like me, competing in a
different age bracket.
As it turns out us older guys get hurt more. “The Master”
honorific is just a kind way to remove the sting of “can’t roll with the 24
year old mat monster”. Let’s face it, Master does sound better. This got me
thinking about the significant differences between Budoshin JuJitsu and BJJ.
During training of Budoshin there is generally an aggressor vs defender. The defender
is the one being evaluated on the technique and even during our tournaments the
aggressor did not resist the techniques of the defender. This is in large part
due to safety concerns. Many of the techniques we demonstrate could cause
catastrophic damage to joints, but also it allowed a very controlled environment.
This method of training and tournament style meant that age (or aggressiveness)
was not much of a factor in evaluating the proper execution of techniques.
During last night’s session I decided to take Daniel’s
advice and focus on just trying to maintain control over my own body, forget
about trying to submit my partner, just stay alive. He likens it to a physical
chess match, I call it delay and deny. This method worked quite well for me for
most of the night. I found myself not getting compromised so quickly while
inside someone’s guard and being able to protect my back just a little bit
longer while in guard myself. After each round I would ask my partner, “What
could I have done better?” or “Where did things go wrong for me?” and each time
they would happily explain and offer suggestions for improvement. That is,
until I rolled with a shark. Apparently
a shark, as I understand it, is a practitioner that is more aggressive than absolutely
necessary. I believe this colloquialism is inspired by a quote from Carlos
Machado, “one way or another, we’re going
to hit the ground, and we’ll be in my world. The ground is my ocean, I’m the
shark, and most people don’t even know how to swim.”
One of last night’s drills was to pass someone else’s guard without
getting swept. I approached one of the guard players (younger guy with an
advanced level belt) and we got to work. I was quickly flipped around and had
my shoulder nearly wrenched out of socket. This was partly my fault because I
was honestly trying to resist, but at the same time I didn’t really know how to
properly defend myself in the situation. As soon as I was clearly compromised
he brusquely dismissed me to defend against the next attacker. He isn’t the bad guy here. My expectations and
experiences are the root of the problem. I was used to being able to practice
techniques in a controlled manner against unresisting opponents. I unconsciously expected him to “roll light”
with me without clearly communicating my expectations.
This experience made me realize I’m not in Kansas anymore.
If I want to learn BJJ, I need to let go of my Budoshin expectations. BJJ is
aggressive. It’s physical. Age, experience, physical prowess do factor in ways
that they didn’t in Budoshin.
So this morning I woke up sore and feeling old, but not completely
disheartened. I have a long journey a head of me and sometimes there are going
to be difficult patches. But that’s ok, everyday I’m getting just a little bit
better.
Wednesday, March 15, 2017
I’m pretty sure one of the guys I rolled with is a chiropractor.
Day 3 of My BJJ Journey
I’m pretty sure one of the guys I rolled with is a chiropractor. My spine has never made such noises. I’m not entirely sure what happened but I found myself on my elbows and knees and this gentleman had climbed onto my back and suddenly my hips were going one way while my shoulders went the other. My back made a sound like a thousand bubble wrap sheets being twisted at the same time. It didn’t hurt, but it was still distressing in its own way.
Last night’s session was good, I am beginning to recognize people and learn some names. Everyone is very polite and once they realize how little I actually know they usually will take an extra moment or two to show me a specific technique or point out an area that needs correction. I am beginning to see the benefit to the Professor’s organic style of training that allows us to address very specific issues with each other during a practical application of techniques. Obviously this works best when teamed up with a more experienced person, but the ability to teach someone else gives an excellent opportunity to hone one’s own skill. If you can’t teach a concept, then chances are you really haven’t understood it yourself.
One drawback is that asking to roll with another student is difficult for introverts like me. Generally, I don’t like to touch other people and rolling is… intimate. I am not the most introvert person in the class however. There are a couple of other students that I can see have a hard time asking others to roll, one student in particular seems to only roll when specifically asked. We will call him Bob. Last night Bob wasn’t getting much action and I noticed the Professor call over another student that was close to Bob’s age and discretely instruct them to ask Bob to train. It's easy to get lost in the room, it is nice to know that the professor is looking out for that.
One minor pet peeve: Obi knots. I get it, during rolling it comes undone. And there are a variety of ways to tie it, both traditional and more progressive, but for the love of toast - it isn’t like tying a shoe.
I’m pretty sure one of the guys I rolled with is a chiropractor. My spine has never made such noises. I’m not entirely sure what happened but I found myself on my elbows and knees and this gentleman had climbed onto my back and suddenly my hips were going one way while my shoulders went the other. My back made a sound like a thousand bubble wrap sheets being twisted at the same time. It didn’t hurt, but it was still distressing in its own way.
Last night’s session was good, I am beginning to recognize people and learn some names. Everyone is very polite and once they realize how little I actually know they usually will take an extra moment or two to show me a specific technique or point out an area that needs correction. I am beginning to see the benefit to the Professor’s organic style of training that allows us to address very specific issues with each other during a practical application of techniques. Obviously this works best when teamed up with a more experienced person, but the ability to teach someone else gives an excellent opportunity to hone one’s own skill. If you can’t teach a concept, then chances are you really haven’t understood it yourself.
One drawback is that asking to roll with another student is difficult for introverts like me. Generally, I don’t like to touch other people and rolling is… intimate. I am not the most introvert person in the class however. There are a couple of other students that I can see have a hard time asking others to roll, one student in particular seems to only roll when specifically asked. We will call him Bob. Last night Bob wasn’t getting much action and I noticed the Professor call over another student that was close to Bob’s age and discretely instruct them to ask Bob to train. It's easy to get lost in the room, it is nice to know that the professor is looking out for that.
One minor pet peeve: Obi knots. I get it, during rolling it comes undone. And there are a variety of ways to tie it, both traditional and more progressive, but for the love of toast - it isn’t like tying a shoe.
Friday, March 10, 2017
On my second day, the Professor held me down while one of his other students kicked me in the face.
On my second day, the Professor held me down while one of his other students kicked me in the face.
While that is technically what happened, that’s not the whole story.
Day two of my journey into Brazilian Jiu Jitsu.
This time my friend Daniel was there to help me transition to the class. He explained some basics and showed me a few tips before class started. Again Professor (The BJJ term for black belt) Matt Baker approached me and spoke with me for a few moments before class started, showing to me that he is concerned about his students and making new people feel welcome. Rolling with Prof Daniel & Prof Matt dramatically changed the sparing experience for me. It was clear that they were in complete control the entire time, the best I could do was try to deny and delay the inevitable. I learned that my stamina needs work, after only a few minutes I was sucking air.
My first class I didn’t really push myself and didn’t really feel like I was being pushed. This time was different. Prof Daniel pushed me, then passed me off the Prof Matt; who really pushed me (it was during this time while Prof Matt was rolling with me another pair of students bumped into us and accidentally kicked me in the face). I went home aching and woke up sore. I still feel a bit lost, but it was an excellent session.
While that is technically what happened, that’s not the whole story.
Day two of my journey into Brazilian Jiu Jitsu.
This time my friend Daniel was there to help me transition to the class. He explained some basics and showed me a few tips before class started. Again Professor (The BJJ term for black belt) Matt Baker approached me and spoke with me for a few moments before class started, showing to me that he is concerned about his students and making new people feel welcome. Rolling with Prof Daniel & Prof Matt dramatically changed the sparing experience for me. It was clear that they were in complete control the entire time, the best I could do was try to deny and delay the inevitable. I learned that my stamina needs work, after only a few minutes I was sucking air.
My first class I didn’t really push myself and didn’t really feel like I was being pushed. This time was different. Prof Daniel pushed me, then passed me off the Prof Matt; who really pushed me (it was during this time while Prof Matt was rolling with me another pair of students bumped into us and accidentally kicked me in the face). I went home aching and woke up sore. I still feel a bit lost, but it was an excellent session.
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